“…I can't let that happen again, ‘cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it’s ever been.”
I just can’t get enough of this song from Relient K, one of my fave CCM (contemporary Christian music) artists. Ever since I heard this song on Yahoo! LAUNCHcast radio, I’ve been searching high and low for an mp3 of this song. After some futile attempts, I was able to get an mp3 but it was not the acoustic version I want. But thanks to a blogsy friend, I was surprised to hear this song’s acoustic version included in one of his podcast episodes. I didn’t waste time in asking him for an mp3 (thanks Kuazee!). I just love singing along to its poignant melody and the lyrics somehow describe some of my own sentiments as a person with a longing to change, not wanting to go back to the ugly shadows of the past, recognizing mistakes and being remorseful for them.
Here’s an audio clip of the song. Too bad, i.PH’s audio quality is not that good. Just email me if you’d like to have an mp3 of this song. I’d be more than glad to share it with you.
I watched the proverbial sunrise
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics…
‘cause I don’t want you to know where I am
‘cause then you’ll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there. That’s exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it’s the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
I’m sorry for the person I became.
I’m sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I’m ready to be sure I never become that way again
‘cause who I am hates who I’ve been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I’ll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can’t let that happen again
‘cause then you’ll see my heart
In the saddest state it’s ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
yeahhh… reminds me of Barok and Ms PrekPrek and …… 
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love teh song too!reminds me of….
Posted by raine at April 5, 2007, 9:02 am